Futile Tears

Tell me, Little One,  why do you cry

when I say I'll be gone awhile?

Is it in fear that I will not reply?

Or is it some unknown qualm?

I think I've told you, you are my pet

The doll I love to play with most,

A lovely toy for you I'll get

and I promise to send it speed post.

Now smile, Little One, be happy, be gay

All's right with your world, you see,

You know well these tears will not pay,

For go I will and I must.

Black Hole

A black hole in my heart,
 no words escape, nor tears,
 invisible darkness
 hiding a thousand fears;
 my eyes go blind
 as light disappears
into unknown depths.
the visible world's a sham
or may be a mirage
my brain conjures
revolving round, alone,
in endless circles,
alive, yet dead
circle that spreads, and spreads.

One Step at a Time

Walk down life’s path one step at a time

Footprints of past oh leave ‘em behind.

What’s in your hand is what you've got

Mind you my love, it’s not what you sought

Be on your toes lest regrets snare your mind

Just walk down life’s path one step at a time.

Once you had power but now you have none

In your bower the blooms are undone

Forget the sunshine, change with the clime

Take what you’re served and be in your prime.

Roller coaster of life turns round and round

When you go up, you are sure to come down

Be king today and a pauper next time

Life’s path is unending, no reason nor rhyme.

This day’s your own to sink or to shine

Come walk down life’s path one step at a time.

Heaven and Hell

A touch, a kiss, a moment of bliss,

 Heaven I create, a castle of sand;

A swelling wave, a billowing wind,

Defenseless, in broken castle I stand:

In terror, in dark, I cry, I hark,

 Hell I live in, a burning land;

Fear in my heart, it grips, I start,

Evils and Ghosts and Others,

Outward for help, inward for strength,

Weal and woe, Fate's taken a hand:

My world and thine, so long entwined,

 Heaven and Hell , now combined.

Death by choice

silence pressing down

relentless, threatening,

a crouching beast of prey

awaiting propitious moment

to jump for the kill.

that killer smile plastered to my afflicted brain

I stand, immovable, impotent

petrified into silent surrender.

and in the void between life and death

stands Time, inscrutable in its dignity

the Ringmaster in circus of life

a burning hoop of fire held out

inviting that scorching jump.

Do i dare to fight? To turn my back

to flee that open jaw?

no, let me wait for the blade to fall

to slice through- or for the wrack

to stretch my limbs taut

tearing each apart

painfully slow to the end.

Alive

When I walk by, do you see me?

Or a mirage?

Mother, sister, daughter, wife

You know,  a woman ignore; 
for her no love, nor tears; 
for her no space to play, to breathe, to live;

An object of lust, a prey

To stalk or kill at will.

My steps bound, my freedom

caged, subject to your rage

Less than beasts I live and die.

None to hear my cries

Few to feel my pain

Yet from within strength I gain

my fire burns bright and glowing

in my desperate world:

No,  I will not forsake

my true nature-

Beyond your known realms

I bloom like a lotus

Embedded in murk

Surging upwards to light. 

My Last Prayer

Let me grow old in peace!

Bask in the rays of a setting sun

Lean back to rest, my day’s work done:

From afar I’ll watch worlds grow,

Listen to new melodies flow

Not strive to reach elusive ends

Nor yearn for more; with nature blend.

A lone star I’ll shine in firmament

No one to lead; none to tend.

 Lear’s madness laid to rest,

Rising no more Sphinx-like from ash 

Sit and dream of another world.

Where paths run straight, where winds don’t hurl,

And brooks never lose their gurgle;

There I’ll lay down life’s loss

Triumph o’er crushing forces.