Relearning

Yes, I was a fool, till a few days back

I cried for men and birds and bees

I moaned in pain for felled trees

And as I writhed I heard them laugh

Their jeers I bore, their cheers abhorred

My mind soared for I was sure

The world would right itself once more

A fresh breeze would unfreeze cold hearts

Would bring in Spring, and as solidarity bloomed

We’d behold on the face of a dark sky

Rising of a shinning New Moon.

No, it wasn’t a dream, a firm faith

Held in heart and mind religiously

I did not heed the warning signs

Nor felt threatened when mountains

Stood in my path.  Like a river

Serene I flowed, round that obstacle

Jumped over boulders untold

A journey to a destination

The ocean waiting with open arms:

When did waters dry? Obliterated

Paths lay stretched ahead, unknown,

Do I walk along, or run in fear?

This time I’ll stand unmoving

Dead as a dodo, or live unmoved

An ascetic in transcendental mood.

Two sides of a coin

She walks into your arms: you blossom
Sunflower like, turning to your Sun
Her smile shines in your eyes
A thousand twinkling stars at night
Illuminating the dark of your thoughts;
Her frenzied tunes your feet command
They tao, and dance and sway and twirl
Like a loan leaf  in rushing winds swirled:
That is life; that is Spring
Untimely nightingales sing.

Come Winter months: a climate change
Glaciers and icebergs and tsunamis-lashed
Lands that freeze, thirsts unquenched
Parched throats, begging arms
Vainly waiting for alms
Yet Sun's not down: a storm of dust
Partial eclipse, mind's mirage
Obliterates light in a blink
Emerge anew, emerge renewed
In one more life; another birth.

Heartless World

Come, we'll enter my sanitized laboratory.
You see this jar?
 That's a human heart preserved;
No, it beats no more, yet you see it bleed.
Those scars, you say?
Some slashes and nicks left by
sharp edged words and thought.
The deep, dark gorges in between you see?
Nothing much. Marks of arrows that struck
That heart when it beat, strong and vibrant.
No, not shafts from enemy quivers
Acts of friends and lovers, sharper, more deadly.
Do I mourn for that dead heart?
Not at all; I'm glad it's gone,
Space around to breathe  once more
Voices free now, to speak.
You say you'll pay a fortune for it?
Alas! I must refuse that offer
Humbly I'll say "It's not for sale"
I keep it as constant reminder
Of perfidy suffered, of copious tears
When hearts longed and dreamed.
Today the world's wiser by far
And heartless too.

No cause to fret

No dear, my space is protected
you can't stepin here,
You speak of my sharing space with another
your not the same, am I clear?
I've learned from that experience, you know,
so, my gates I've shut tight
you're trying to push them open once more
You know that's not right.
With that other I shared a special bond
beyond all bonds you've known
That's over and done with for life
You can't produce a clone.
our shared space has shrunk, you say
perhaps it is indeed so
We'll manage fine I'm confident
So cheer up, shine, and glow.

Love Reborn

Mind fixed on shadow they did not see
Love walk away out
on to the street silent and free
Far Love ventured
shadow clung close. securely
Shadow and Love built lives
to live separately
Each a slut uncontrolled
a whore body without soul
wandering listlessly.
Happiness an empty dream
neon like, glowing as reality.
Sunset Time called home the twain
Arms outstretched against odds strained
to gather close, to consolidate years of gains
Of togetherness, of reality built in vain
In full view Shadow melted
like ice in mid-summer's day
Love was reborn as rose
in lands far, far away.

Living Blind

Pains and pleasures
 know no rules
They come and go at will
In them I live and die
a thousand lives
Each day a new hue
Ever changing,
unknown yet known
I travel through lands
to find certainty of déjà vu 
Master plan chalked out
In hind sight  seen
Each hour a struggle 
to stamp authority
on life out of control
Speeding blind
To miraculous reprieve
Or end sublime.

A Place in Your Heart

My doors I opened wide
to welcome You, My Lord;
With garlands of love
I decked Your feet
and incense of faith
suffused the chamber You sat in
while my voice whispered a prayer
" keep me safe, hold me close, Lord".
When I ventured to Your threshold
You kept it shut, no way to enter
No room for me to rest:
What a cruel game You play
for Your pleasure
Or is it love beyond all love
One that breaks me
Shreds me to pieces
For You to pick up
To rebuild as You will
making me worthy
of a place in Your heart.