Let me pour out my heart
A heart shredded and broken
A heart that survived
Day after day
Without Love
That counts
Going on for years
Living a lonely life
With a smile
That counts
And as I live on
I leave behind
My dying heart
Traveling
To a heartless world
I learn to live
In my black hole
Sucking in pain
A yet barren womb
Full of restrained energy
Waiting
To burst forth in glory
Creating new habitat
For broken hearts
For new starts.
My brain is dead
I can feel it
For a long time now
hasn’t had a thought
Not beyond getting through
feeling the blues.
The world out there, running
Like a mad hare
Tosses and turns
Everywhere
Yet clogs in my brain
Just will not move
And my feet wont groove.
My dead brain wastes
Yes, that is the case
And try as I might
Not a spark can I light
I’ll wait, I’ll wait, and I’ll wait
Till it regains gait
You tell me
Take the straight road
I prefer a crooked one
No, not to defy you
Not at all
To explore, to discover
All that you deny and reject.
That road is steep
Winding at times
I struggle to find foothold
Often I lose my way
This journey of rediscovery
Brings exhilarating moments
To reward efforts.
Your well trodden paths
Your beaten tracks
Fail my test every time
Lead me to break molds repeatedly
Or, to have them broken
I'm grateful for that
Powers that be, or I
Uncover Truth behind truths
Realigning, Rewiring, relearning.
Thus far- no farther
you've reached your limit
Certain cravings die
Untimely deaths
Others live on
Beating, pulsing
Knowing death before they die.
Distances not measured in miles
Thoughts capable of winging
Crossing untold expanse
Touching, weaving dreams
living lives within life.
A hundred revelations
Unique journeys
Re-shaping, emerging
One out of another.
"Should I go?"
"It's best you do."
A short conversation
Words too few.
Yet mirror cracks from side to side
Shards of unrealized dreams
Strewn a around, scattered on ground
Pain and regret flow down in streams
Leaving desolate eyes
But broken heart clings on
As prayers spew
May all be well.
Perhaps one day Comes solace
Per chance a re-run
Not the same as before
Never the same
Just enough to hold on
Desperate attempt
To rekindle dead fires
Till ashes grow cold
Flames doused in hearts once bold.
Burnt out souls indifferent
Neither sad nor glad
Submissive to blows.
Were I to die today
None would be worse off
A small unwanted blob
Wiped off with no thought
Leaves canvas ready to re-paint.
Lives I touched
Might let out a sigh or two
No storms will brew
For memory is fickle as fortune
And voids can't stay.
In another day
Life will come rushing in
A pleasant wind
To leave a new imprint.
Mouth zpped
Blindfolded
Limbs strapped
You urge to fly free
To touch moon and stars
'Cause that's where you are.
Mind cluttered with
Disappointment
Heartbreak
You urge to transcend
To cross the bar
As you beckon from afar.
Wanting to share
Finding myself banished
Condemned to live
In prison unbolted
Unseen surveillance surround
Griefs profound.
