Back from Nowhere

For a while I lost my way,

Like a child who's gone astray;

For a day I lived my dreams

Like a boat that flits upstream;

In a trice  broke my cage

With a smile bore world's rage.

For in my night a sun did rise,

From my breast my heart pried,

Alas! A wind of furry blew,

My hopes to ground it threw-

My sun in that mist grew pale,

Weeds wild ran across that dale,

Once more down I sank,

A cup of tears I drank.

Aha! In my garden came

A shower of dripping rain,

My blessings it taught to count,

Undaunted my hills surmount

No more in dream, nor in trance,

To own tune I now dance.

Brave Heart

My dreams die;
I do not follow them:
Not like a coward I run,
A soldier I stand, tall
Amidst death and  ruin.
Look not up on me
With sympathy-filled eyes;
I ask not for your smiles
Nor your tears I fear,
Think not that I shall fall-
For I'm a Sphinx
That from ashes rises
To live anew.
Not a demon am I,
Yet , like Raktabeeja
I spring forth
A hundred fold stronger
Every time you slay me.
And I shall live
Life after life
Ignoring all pain
Slaying challenges
Invincible warrior
I brandish my sword at life.

Pall of Gloom

Not in a grave entombed,

Yet buried deep in a pall of gloom;

A life without moorings

Second by second descending

Into  a yawning  hole

That sucks out light:

A facade of joy remains

To grimace at the world,

Like a painted face

Peeping through chinks;

Heartache no longer felt

But absorbed in blood streams-

Screaming in veins.

Silent reminder of life lived in vain.

Faith

I live in fear, I live in shame

I live a life without a name,

Dodging Fortune’s killing blows

Running hard from Hate’s flow:

But somewhere deep within my mind

There’s belief,   faith in Mankind.

Narrow walls, violent rage

Stalk our steps at every stage

We’re cruel, we deprive

When there’s chance we take for ride

Yet somewhere deep within my mind

I have faith in Mankind.

Sun still shines upon our race

Rains come pouring to bring grace

Winter’s chill does not stay

Summer’s breeze comes to play

So somewhere deep within my mind

I keep faith in Mankind.

A Lover's Complaint

You are an addiction I'm hooked to,
A habit I cannot break,
You are a nemesis that haunts me,
A decision I fail to take
You are the bitter pill I swallow,
My death and my heartbreak,
You are a jailor that chains me,
A tormentor that burns me on a stake.
You are the smile that wihters,
The sunshine that fades,
You are the hero with clay feet,
And the solace I crave.
In you i find heaven,
In you I stand depraved,
You are my ruin eternal,
My resurrection, way laid,
You are the love that kills,
You are my ultimate fate..

Futile Tears

Tell me, Little One,  why do you cry

when I say I'll be gone awhile?

Is it in fear that I will not reply?

Or is it some unknown qualm?

I think I've told you, you are my pet

The doll I love to play with most,

A lovely toy for you I'll get

and I promise to send it speed post.

Now smile, Little One, be happy, be gay

All's right with your world, you see,

You know well these tears will not pay,

For go I will and I must.

Black Hole

A black hole in my heart,
 no words escape, nor tears,
 invisible darkness
 hiding a thousand fears;
 my eyes go blind
 as light disappears
into unknown depths.
the visible world's a sham
or may be a mirage
my brain conjures
revolving round, alone,
in endless circles,
alive, yet dead
circle that spreads, and spreads.