Delusion

I thought I'm strong   I could break free
I know I'm wrong     it cannot be
I've ridden waves     I've climbed hills
They give strength    yet they're drills
My root is with you  your hand held
More I am caught    the more I rebel
To teach this truth    did you stay away?
My world crashing   price I've paid
You'll come back    to find broken me
Awaiting your arms  close to sea
My days are dead    my nights are graves
Delusion I've lived   a life unsafe.